I come from a place where expectations are loud
and dreams are supposed to be quiet.
I learned responsibility early
Being the strong one
The giver
The caretaker
I know how to build
But there's a part of me that wants to burn it all down
I don't hate it but...
I'm just scared of becoming trapped inside it
Some days I'm reckless
Other days I'm too careful
Too good
Too controlled
I try to be everything for everyone
I'm hopeful by nature
But I question myself constantly
Am I doing enough?
Am I doing the right things?
Or am I just moving so I don't have to face reality?
I have good days
Bad ones
Worse ones
Then days that remind me why I choose to keep going
I know the struggle is a part of it
Where do I go from here?
I don't fear pain
or silence
I fear lying to myself
Being irrelevant
Forgotten.
I'm not an aesthetic
I'm just a girl who's building
and rebuilding in real time
I love long drives with no destination
Open skies
Oceans that remind me how vast the universe is.
Underneath it all,
I just want peace.
I've been underestimated
Misunderstood
Overlooked
But I'm still here.
Not chasing
I'm Choosing...
ME
And deep down,
I'm just like you.